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So it begins [Apr. 4th, 2009|02:19 pm]
[mood |embarrassedembarrassed]

Meeting with my personal trainer for the first time was great but also a little sad.  The good news is that I now have someone on my side who is knowledgable in the science of fitness.  She's going to come up with routines, measure my progress, and help me achieve my short, mid and long term goals.  The sad part is just how slow I'm going to have to go with the cardio workout.  It is really the only safe and sane way to get my heart and lungs adjusted, but it is hard because it is ... slow!

The plan this far includes two days of 30 minutes on the treadmill.  Well, 30 minutes of workout with 10 to 15 on either end as a warm up and a cool down.  The little old ladies at the gym will likely be kicking my ass. Strength training will be once a week.  T suggested the circuit room at the gym until our next session.  But our next session is on Tuesday, so it isn't like I'm going to have to wait long.  I'm also joining a yoga class that meets twice a week.  That means 2 days dedicated to cardio, 1 to strength training and 2 to flexibility.  That's just for now.

My pride is the biggest killer here.  It is so frustrating to look "normal" but know that I'm not.  People already look at me funny when I take the elevator one floor (dude, sometimes I just can't take going up a flight of stairs. Especially if I've just walked across campus in cold weather), what are they going to think when they see me barely working up a sweat on the treadmill?

The truth is I just can't worry about other people's opinions.  It is doubtful that anyone will really be watching me anyhow.
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Right Back Atcha [Mar. 28th, 2009|06:48 pm]
I'm back.  I need to update the profile page.

My primary care physician signed off on me starting a fitness plan.  I had to have him sign a waiver before the personal trainers would work with me.  Makes sense.  I do have pretty low bloodpressure and severe asthma to work with.

Here we go again!
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I SUCK [Apr. 7th, 2007|12:54 pm]

I am very disappointed and completely down on myself.  I suck.  Not only did I not ever start my workout plan this week, but I'm pretty sure I regained the four pounds I had lost.  I was eating crappy because I'm crampy and hormonal.  damnit.  I know if I just get started and get in the groove that I'll be happy and enjoy all this.

I hate being unhealthy.  Aside from just not liking the way I look overweight (it is so foreign to me...I always was a thin child), I hate being unhealthy.  I don't like not having the strength that I like.  I don't like not having the flexibility I have enjoyed in the past.  I hate my skin all blotchy.  I hate the celulite and the fat rolls and feeling like I'm living in someone else's body.

Plus, my hair sucks.

Okay, I'm really getting out of control.  Baby steps, right?  And huge leaps.  Huge leaps (risks) followed up by baby steps.  My eating has been a lot healthier lately.  I've been doing a lot better on that front.  So I just have to throw in exercise, stretching and fuckit.  I'm starting with just exercise.  I just have to get started.

Today I'm going to walk on the treadmill for 20 minutes at a moderate pace and do some upper body exercises.  Yeah, that isn't part of The Plan, but walking is an easy way to get started on cardio and I always feel pumped after a good upper body work out.  I'll have to do it as my break from cleaning/homework.

I don't want another week of feeling like shit and gaining(!) weight.

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Fitness Plan [Apr. 2nd, 2007|06:00 pm]
Today starts my very loose fitness regimine.  I plan on doing a week at a time until it becomes habit and then adding more.

Monday - Abs exercises (HATE abs exercises!)
Tuesday - 20 minutes easy cario (because I hate treadmills and we have one)
Wednesday - Upper body exercises (LOVE upper body exercises)
Thursday - 20 minutes easy cardio
Friday - Lower body exercises (boring but don't hate as much as abs)
Saturday - 20 minutes easy cardio
Sunday - rest

I'd like to also start practicing yoga once a day, but I'm going to wait off on that (well, on trying to  make a habit of it).  I've noticed that I'm more successful at trying these new things when I do them a little bit at a time.

So, tonight is ABS!
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Weight Loss [Mar. 31st, 2007|01:50 pm]
I lost four pounds just from changing my diet.  Now, if I can only get it together with the exercise!
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Turkey Chili Recipe [Mar. 28th, 2007|06:06 pm]

This is a modified version of the Abs Diet turkey chili recipe.  It is so delicious and SO FAST to make.

1lb ground turkey
1 onion (chopped)
1 can of black beans
1 can of chickpeas (aka garbanzo beans)
1 can of unsweetened no salt added corn
1 can of veggie low sodium broth
1 can of petit diced tomatoes
hot sauce
1 tablespoon of olive oil

1. Heat olive oil in a pan/sauce pot big enough to hold all the above ingredients (heat on medium low heat)
2. Saute chopped onion for a few minutes until soft (I sometimes add minced garlic too)
3. Add ground turkey and brown (about five minutes)
4. Add tomatoes (including juices), black beans, chickpeas, corn and broth
5. Add cinnamon, cumin and hot sauce to taste (really try the cinnamon...it adds AMAZING flavor)
6. Simmer 20 minutes

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Success! Well... [Mar. 28th, 2007|06:04 pm]
I've lost a few pounds just watching what I'm eating.  I know the weight would come off faster if I was really strict about following the six weeks Abs Diet plan and/or if I worked out more often (okay, more than I do now which is any at all).  But I still feel good about eating better and losing weight.  What is that saying?  It took however many years to put this weight on...it will take that long to get the weight off too.  Something like that.  I think it is supposed to inspire patience.  I suck at being patient. :)
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Long time come [Mar. 14th, 2007|05:15 pm]
[mood |excitedexcited]

Wow.  I can't believe I haven't posted to this LJ since the day my mom died.  Wow.

I've been following the Abs Diet.  It isn't really a diet.  It just gives me more structure when trying to eat healthily and happily.  I really like it.  I had been working out at the fitness room at my old office building, but there is not gym at my new office.  I'm going to do as the author of the Abs Diet suggests and just hang tight during the first two weeks.  This is my second week.  I'm not following it to a "T" so I'm not losing weight as quickly as I probably could.  I actually don't feel bad about that.  I'm still losing weight.  Not much but a little is still more than none!

It is cool that just a week and a half into changing my eating habits, and my body has already adjusted A LOT.  I am not craving sweets and junk food anywhere near as much as I was.  In fact, on my "cheat" meal I can barely stomach the junk!  AND my portions are really getting in line with what they should be.  I never realized how easy it is to over eat when you don't know how much a portion should be.  Have you actually ever checked out how much a serving of peanut butter is and how much that looks like after you've measured it out?  It is so, so, so much less than I thought.  And you know what?  The smaller portions are starting to fill me up.

Anyhow, I like the new way of eating.  Sandra and I really needed to do this and it has helped me tremendously. :)  I can't wait til I start working out!

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W1D1: Part II [Feb. 16th, 2004|11:56 pm]
[mood |exhaustedexhausted]

The weather was really nice today...almost balmy. Well, balmy for a Texas winter. I've noticed that my biggest problem on my work outs is related to my endurance (ability to breathe well and not get tired out). My muscles could probably carry me further if my endurance was better. I think that I may be running too fast and that it is hindering my endurance levels. I'm going to try and slow down my natural running pace and see if I can go farther. Maybe it is silly of me to think but it is almost as if my lack of obesity is making the runs harder. I'm not fit but I am naturally strong. So even if there is no "tone" (read: my muscle is covered in fat) I still have a lot of strength. I went a little bit farther than I did on Wed. & Fri. of last week. I'm going to extend my distance slowly.

I'm already begining to see results not only in my performance but also in my body. It seems like it is too soon for noticable changes. I'm guessing it is a combination of water and exercise increase with a decrease in my junkfood/empty calorie intake. My muscles are starting to tone up. My skin is definitely clearing up and looking more healthy. I cannot imagine what it will be like when I'm at the end of the C25K program and onto regular training.

I have a love/hate relationship with running right now. It takes a lot to get out and start and it is difficult once I do get out there. But even with the difficulty I'm already finding myself thinking fondly of my work outs. I look forward to running right up until the hour or so before I go. I think my hesitation is based on how difficult (physically) I find the work outs. I bet that when it is easier and more enjoyable to run during the actual run that I'll be over-come with positive feelings. All love and no hate. Now I just need to work my ass off until I get there.

Finally, I'm only sore in one place. The spot between my shoulderblades is pretty damn uncomfortable. I tend to carry my stress in my shoulders and neck so this would make sense. I've been trying to remember to stay loose in the shoulders while I'm working out. I think I'm going to start doing some back/shoulder/neck specific stretches often. Also, I spoke with my father about the insane after-work out coughing. (My father may not be good for a lot of things but he does have a respectable athletic past.) He says that it is most likely a combination of cold weather and my lungs getting used to running. I asked about smoke being a factor and he said it is likely a smaller part of the problem because it makes it harder for my lungs to recouperate. Supposedly the coughing will go away with time.
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Distance, Strength training, Body Weight and BMI [Feb. 14th, 2004|02:56 am]
[mood |thoughtfulthoughtful]

Drew kindly clocked the distance that I've been exercising this week. It comes out to 1.5mi round-trip. I figure I ran only a quarter of that distance either day. Not too bad for someone as out of shape as I am. I'm going to repeat W1 of the C25K program next week and I'll be lengthening my distance when I do. Depending on where Kat and I are at the end of next week, we may end up repeating W1 again. I don't mind because I see it as building a good base to start from. I don't want to rush through the program and end up not meeting the goals I have set or, even worse, burning out. Kat and I agreed to switch our runs to the afternoon. It is just an easier and better time for both of us to work out. She swears up and down that she's really out of shape and that we'll be on the same work out level. I have to admit I'm a bit wary simply because she is 1)much thinner and 2)hasn't been completely sedentary for 10 months the way I have. I made her promise to tell me if she wasn't comfortable with the pace of our work outs. I know that even if she drops out I will continue on. A partner will be fun and helpful on those really bad days that I need the extra incentive to go out...but she isn't necessary. I think I have enough internal motivation (especially with the great reinforcement from Drew and others online) that I'll be okay on my own if need be.

I'm going to start my strength training not this next week but the week after. I think it will be best to slowly ease that into my life instead of giving a monumental shock to my system with a new cardio program AND a strength training program starting at once. I plan on doing: forward lunges, side lunges, squats and heel raises to work my legs and bum. The leg exercises will be combined with free weights to simultaneously work my arms (I have a specific arm exercise for each leg one but don't know the names for those things). Then I'm going to do two types of sit-ups/crunches and at least one exercise to work my lower back. I'm going to start out with a small number of times per exercise but really stretch each movement out to get full resistance. I'm going to add the weights to Tuesdays and Thursdays to start off with and then probably add Saturdays after a month or so. Slow and steady is the name of the game.

A lot of people say they're working out to "lose weight." I don't know what my weight is so I couldn't really gauge the loss by numbers if I tried. Neither my mom nor I keep a scale in our homes. We both have had eating disorders (hers to the point of being admitted to the ICU) and scales are just taboo. I know that if I owned a scale I'd become obsessed with weighing myself and would lose sight of my real goal: a healthy lifestyle. There are just certain behaviors that I know will become compulsive addictions if I let them into my life and weighing is one of those behaviors. Even though I won't own a scale I'd still like to know my actual weight. I'm thinking I'll go to my dad's house (short visit) and use his scale and BMI gadget. It would be nice to be able to say I started out weighing "X" and now that I'm fit and wearing a clothes size I am comfortable with I weigh "Y". I keep trying to guess my weight. I know that I'm over weight but I know that I'm not obese. I'm 5'8" and will always have curves (and by curves, I'm not referring to pudge but the fact that I have that T&A hourglass figure). I know that I don't want to go below 135-140lbs. I wouldn't look good with any less weight on my frame unless I became a super athlete. Somewhere between a size 8-10 seems like a reasonable request and I'm not too far from a 10 as it is. But really, even though losing weight and dropping a couple dress sizes would be nice...I'm more focused on feeling healthy and just being able to RUN.

Wow. It is only 3am and I'm actually tired. A first for this week!
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